Asking for What We Want

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I don’t remember being encouraged to ask God for what I wanted, back when my faith was being formed in my childhood and teen—and even young-adult—years. It was assumed that my natural longings would be tainted by sin and selfishness. If anything, I was encouraged to suppress my natural wants and wishes and train myself to pray for what God wanted me to have: conflict-free relationships, happy willingness to obey authority and serve others, the growth in my life of the Holy Spirit’s fruits of character, and my increasing ability—through my participation in the Church’s life—to spread the Gospel.

When we were in trouble, we prayed for help. When we or loved ones were sick, we prayed for God’s healing. We prayed to be delivered of uncomfortable emotions such as anger and anxiety. As I look at this now, I see that much of our prayer was defensive—a constant stream of prayers against life as it was.

St. Ignatius—and, indeed, quite a few of our saints and wise men and women—have taught me a different way to approach prayers of petition, prayers that ask God for something. I look honestly at my life and ask God for what I want and need. I allow my true desires to well up, and I voice them so that God and I can look at them together. Sometimes, as we study a request, I discover that it covers up the real desire, which is still tucked deep in my heart, as though it were afraid to come out.

If prayer were simply a transaction, we could line up the requests and hope for the best. But prayer was never meant to be so cut and dried, so businesslike. Prayer is communion between God and the pray-er. Prayer is the opportunity for the Holy Spirit to hover over a matter along with me so that I can relax into God’s love, let go of my fears and defensiveness, get a clear vision of what’s going on in me and in my situation, and work together with God.

God calls us to participate in ongoing creation of this world. Prayer is a way for me to engage with divine work inside me and outside me. But I cannot engage until my heart is free and my head is clear. I start out by saying, “Okay, this is what I want. What do you think?” And the conversation begins, and by the end of it I may understand that this want of mine is precisely right, that it pleases God and is a wonderful prayer to offer. Or I may learn that my heart has deceived me or that the enemy of my soul is pushing me toward something, making me feel desperate to have what probably is not that important or may even be harmful.

We must not be afraid to pray. We must not be afraid to tell the truth when we pray. We must not ignore what is going on inside us. A good prayer involves my voicing my honest wants and hopes.

However, Ignatius often emphasized that, before any other request, we should ask for the spiritual freedom to receive whatever God’s love offers us. Part of my ongoing prayer is to ask for a certain indifference to outcomes, so that, no matter what happens or doesn’t happen, I will continue in the confidence that God’s love and mercy surround me always and that I will be blessed whether or not I get what I ask for.

Then again, if I ask for God’s presence, I know that this prayer is already answered.

About Vinita Hampton Wright 160 Articles
Vinita Hampton Wright has served as senior editor at Loyola Press for 16 years and recently became managing editor of the trade books department. She has written various fiction and non-fiction books, including the novel Dwelling Places with HarperOne, Days of Deepening Friendship and The Art of Spiritual Writing for Loyola Press, and most recently, The St. Teresa of Avila Prayer Book for Paraclete Press. Vinita is a student and practitioner of Ignatian spirituality, and from 2009 to 2015 she blogged at Days of Deepening Friendship. For the past few years, she has co-led small groups through the 19th Annotation of the Spiritual Exercises. She lives in Chicago with her husband, three cats, and a dog. In her “spare” time these days, she is working on her next novel.

6 Comments on Asking for What We Want

  1. To pray or not to pray for something is an issue sometimes when you think that God knows what’s best for you and will grant it without having to be asked. On the other hand, there are many instances in the Bible which mention that God answers the prayer of righteous persons, and even heeded Abraham’s pleadings for Sodom.

    I have found that ‘giving the truth of your heart (step 2 of a ‘four step’ charismatic retreat) really helps to solve the pray or not to pray problem. Give the truth of your heart/feelings and then leave it to God.

  2. “Okay, this is what I want. What do you think” is truly inspired. Unlike when we ask a friend what does he/she think and they give us an answer they think we want to hear, God is honest and straightforward. Thank you, Vinita, for sharing so wisely.

  3. The nail on the head…yes! I have always avoided asking for what I want, as I could never be sure it was what God wanted. In fact, for most of my life, I avoided asking for anything, since it seemed those prayers were never answered anyway! This is a paradigm shift for me and for many others, I’m sure. Thank you so much!

  4. That’s an important distinction, Vinita: Do I pray for what I imagine God wants for me, or do I pray with an openness, paying attention to my deepest desires, my talents and strengths? And then do I look at these together with God?
    Sometimes I get sidetracked by thinking God is leading me towards Path B, when it’s a distraction from the enemy, disguised in a false image of God and pretending to offer freedom.

  5. I am so grateful for this post. It comes at a time when my teenage granddaughter is praying for a change in her life and she has been open to asking for my help with prayer. I have shared the post with her — you have hit the proverbial nail on the head. Blessings.

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