Remember How Much I Love You

Last Supper

This post is based on Week Seven of An Ignatian Prayer Adventure.

It is the night of the Passover meal, the night before your death.

You are not the calm, controlled, repetitive voice we hear each week at Mass.

You are desperate, eager, attentive, and emotional.

You say, “You have no idea how much I have looked forward to eating this meal with you.”

You are with your closest companions for the last time as one of them. You are desperate to be assured they get it, that they understand all you have tried to teach them. You have been with them day in and day out for three years. You know the road ahead will not be easy for them without you. But most of all, you want them to know how much you love them.

You have nothing to give them—no estate to pass on to them as your heirs, no trust fund to leave them financially secure, and no earthly kingdom or dynasty. After 33 years on this earth, you amassed no material wealth. You even had to borrow the donkey to get there that night. You have nothing to give away to your closest friends. Nothing—except this: this loaf of bread and this jug of wine.

On the night before you die, material wealth no longer matters to anyone. The only thing that matters is having your loved ones near and being sure they know how much you love them.

And you take that bread and wine, and you break it and share it and give it away. You give away all that you have left, as if saying in one desperate plea, “Please, please, in this gift, see how much I love you. It’s all I have left, but more than anything I want you to have it. I want you to remember me by it. I want you to remember how much I love you.”

I want you to remember how much I love you. This is your last will and testament to each of us.

About Lisa Kelly 39 Articles

Lisa Kelly is a wife, mother, and Ignatian Associate living in Omaha, Nebraska. She works to help organizations integrate spirituality into their planning and systems. She and her husband, Tom, completed the 19th Annotation in 2005, just prior to spending two years living in the Dominican Republic with their three young children, supporting the work of the Jesuit Institute for Latin American Concern. Additionally they have lived in El Salvador and Bolivia for extended periods.

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