Letting Go of the Shades

I remember the time I was praying silently in the living room very early in the morning, before my little ones were awake. It was prior to my father’s death from cancer, when my sister and I, many miles apart, were praying simultaneously thanks to prearranged appointments on our calendars. I sat alone, criss cross-legged in the middle of the room, with sunlight just beginning to filter through the partially closed mini blinds in front […]

Surrendering Our Swords

As we wound our way up the Catalan mountain in our zippy, little car, I imagined St. Ignatius traversing Spain on his own pilgrimage to Montserrat. I found it hard to imagine how he would have made it over the rugged terrain on horseback. He was, at that point, travelling alone without servants, just months out from the crippling blow of the cannonball. What pain he must have suffered as he rode! It gave me […]

A Gratitude Resolution

When I was a girl, I was a Girl Scout. Thankfully, we had an active troop leader who took us on all kinds of outdoor excursions, from camping and hiking to ice tobogganing, in all kinds of weather. Recently I thought of a song that we sometimes sang as Scouts, the “Johnny Appleseed Song.” It went: “The Lord is good to me, and so I thank the Lord, for giving me the things I need, the […]

Where Have We Not Yet Surrendered Our Lives to God?

Many of us give up something as part of a Lenten fast. Fasting helps us in our almsgiving in having more to give away to others, serves as a penitential offer for past wrongdoing, and unites us in solidarity to those who are hungry. Fasting is good, especially if we keep in mind it is a means and not an end in itself. But as we move through these days and weeks of Lent, we […]

When St. Ignatius and John Legend Mash-up

For the last week, I’ve had a mash-up of St. Ignatius and R&B singer John Legend stuck in my ear. The Suscipe— “Whatsoever I have or hold, you have given me. I give it all back to you”¦”—fades into the spare percussive chords of Legend’s “All of Me”: “I’ll give my all to you. You’re my end and my beginning. Even when I lose I’m winning,” and finally winds back to Ignatius and John singing […]

To Labor and Not to Seek Reward

In celebration of our fifth anniversary, we’ve invited our dotMagis bloggers to reflect on the individual lines of St. Ignatius’s Prayer for Generosity. The Prayer for Generosity gives us words that assist us on a lifelong path of becoming more fully surrendered to God. St. Ignatius’s words “to labor and not to seek reward” can include larger vocational decisions to seek God’s call for its own sake, and not for external rewards such as wealth, […]

“The Right Kind of Recklessness”

There were many tributes to St. Ignatius on his feast day a couple of weeks ago. Here is one of the best. The writer is Matt Emerson, a teacher at Xavier College Preparatory in Palm Desert, California: Ignatius’s example, like the example of every saint, challenges us to act similarly: to have the right kind of recklessness. When I read of Ignatius’s encounter with his brother, I’m encouraged to let my life be a language the […]

What Does God Think of You?

“Imagine God thinking about you. What do you assume God feels when you come to mind?” That question begins David Benner’s Surrender to Love which I have been reading recently.  In our heads we mostly know what the correct answer is, or should be: Of course God loves us.  But deep in our hearts, it’s not that easy.  Our sense of being a disappointment or of being a sinner or of simply not being all […]